Every year on my birthday my friend since high school, Becky, and I go out for Birthday and Christmas lunch. We celebrate her birthday in October, Christmas, and my December birthday. This year she called on the 30th to say she might have to cancel our lunch if there were complications when her husband had his tooth pulled out the morning of the 31st. I didn't hear from her so I knew she was coming and I was happy.
But when we got to the lunch place I found out that my 2-for-1 coupon was no longer good because the place had a new owner. I was surprised at how quickly I reacted negatively and expressed my anger to the staff (without yelling at them). Then I shifted gear and we had a very nice lunch. We then stopped off at my pharmacy to pick up some medicine and to get my flu shot. After I filled out the flu shot paperwork they forgot about me and I finally checked to see what was going on. They started to say that I should be in line (I had already been in line twice) and then one of the pharmacists said that she was about to call me. I was mad again and expressed that a bit to the pharmacist and mostly to my friend. again reacting much more quickly than normal. I got my flu shot and we were ready to leave. My friend went up to the front to make her purchases and I took 3-4 min. to breathe and check inside. I noticed that I felt jealous because the end of the social time and the focus on me had come. Becky was going home to take care of her husband. I don't have a partner right now so I'm not going home to anyone.
After I connected with this place I started to feel better. When Becky and I returned to my place she asked me if this had been a good lunch and I said yes. She told me how important it was to both have the lunch and to take care of her husband. That made me feel special. And now instead of feeling lonely and unable to take initiative I'm writing in my blog and taking care of some of my work for the city.
Happy New Year, Laurel