Wow. It's not just with exercises or diet… It's with every part of my life except my work. I don't complete projects. I bring things up to a okay level and then I leave them. Jars with yucky food in them for over a week. Two boxes of stuff to return still sitting on my table. Starting to clean out and organize my desk and then leaving lots of junk on top of it. I can hear a little bit of criticism coming through but that's not my point. This is really loving care towards myself. For the first time in my life I see the pattern based on It's Pointless and how it affects my entire life. Every aspect. Brush my teeth often, but not every day. Heal injuries enough and just get along with how it is.
Wow. This pattern is everywhere in my life. I wonder if this new understanding will support me in approaching projects differently. Another factor has been lack of energy. So it's not like this revelation will result in everything in my life having a sense of completion. I feel sad, almost tears. I WANT IT ALL. AND MY THROAT IS FEELING LIKE IT MIGHT GET SICK. I don't want that and my next step will be to figure out a strategy for health.
So I'd like to define the areas of my life that are important and where things are not finished. Then I want to identify the topics. Some things I will bring to a certain place set them aside for later. The most important things will become projects I attend to regularly and complete or make progress on as is appropriate.